[	Current Mood	|	discontent	]
[	Current Music	|	Twilight--Elliot Smith	]

1. This weekend was too fucking emotional on too many different levels. im worn out but still up. making sense? nope.
2. Screw this Elliot Smith song for fitting the situation too well. 08 Twilight.mp3 --Elliot Smith
   
3. "Beauty and the Geek" marathon was on mtv so i watched like 5 episodes cuz id never seen the show before. it was actually a terrible show that was so addicting that i kind of really really enjoyed it. I'd marry Nate in a second if possible.
4. Last week was actually great even though i thought it'd kill me.
5. I wishing to god or some powerful being to strike me with any sort of plague imaginable because anything sounds better than dealing with school tomorrow. I just dont want to handle anything right now. I just cant.
6. On a bit of an up note, hung with Pam and Rob a bit on Friday in their new apartment. It's nice to see a friend of mine being all independant and such. Made me happy.
7. Screw it, I'm going to sleep.

[	Current Mood	|	excited	]
[	Current Music	|	Funnel of Love--Wanda Jackson	]

Congratulations! On behalf of California State University, Northridge, I am pleased to offer you admission to the University for the fall 2007 Semester.

My first college acceptance letter!

[	Current Mood	|	*swirling thoughts*	]
[	Current Music	|	Sea Legs--The Shins	]

Firstly, "Sea Legs" is probably my favorite song off the new Shins album. It's very different than most of their other songs. The album is alright but it'll probably grow on my more in a bit.

Secondly, the last 7 days have been weird. Like they've been just a never-ending day that is making me feel strangely  and mildly upset. It's a bit inexplicable. At least I think i did mildly alright on my presentations.

[	Current Location	|	home	]
[	Current Mood	|	loved	]
[	Current Music	|	Chicago (Adult cont.easy listening version)--Sufjan Stevens	]

This break has been pretty amazing. Life is beautiful to me. I finally turned 18 which was actually a strange, but sad realization for me. I feel a little older, a little more hopeful for the upcoming year. 2007 may be amazing. I can see a strange glimmer of what this year holds. Prom. Graduation. College. I've been fearing the thought of leaving everything I know simultaneously aching to leave. It's a weird, surreal, mixed emotion. But now I seem to feel like I can almost embrace it. I do wish the break were a bit longer, I really haven't gotten enough sleep to last me. But I'm nearly done with all of my applications which is a little exciting and also making me a little anxious to figure out where I'll end up. Just some random thoughts. Meanwhile, how about that starting on break homework? Hm. Perhaps tomorrow. My mom has been treating me a little differently ever since my birthday. She's being less controlling, less worried, even a little more trusting. It's nice. I look back at 2006 and am a little bewhildered by everything that happened. It truly was a...crazy year. I can't even begin to delve in to it. Although my birthday held a few tinges of drama, it actually turned out nicely. Meanwhile, became obsessed with Marx Brothers again (Harpo is my love), and had a nice Fred Astaire and Ginger Rogers with Becks (oh man, Fred Astaire, SO amazing). I think I'm off to bed. Hope you're all feeling wonderful.

[	Current Location	|	running from writers block	]
[	Current Mood	|	cranky	]
[	Current Music	|	A Track And A Train--Shout Out Louds	]

On the twelfth day of Christmas, im_a_jellybean sent to me...

Twelve records socializing

Eleven sharpies writing

Ten colors a-dancing

Nine bands breathing

Eight stripes a-reading

Seven cds a-talking

Six movies a-humming

Five cha-a-a-arcoal pencils

Four stella artois

Three emo lyrics

Two nose goes

...and a life in a death cab for cutie.

Get your own Twelve Days:

HAHA yay. blah, got most x-mas/hannakuh shopping done today. God why is the holiday season SO FRIGGIN' EXPENSIVE? Gar. Had a....kinda weird day. Kinda up and down. Or more so was a little low a lot of the time. oh well. only 3 days left this week. so it's kinda like today is tuesday. although if that were so i'd be excited because i could watch House (even if it is a re-run). lol. Most amazing show on the planet. my favoritest thing ever. i got some click-it sharpies today though. they're AMAZING. love them so. should be writing this paper though. ahhh distractions. Don't you hate it when certain guys act like teenage girls saying things like, "I dunno how I'm feeling...". Gr gr gr gr so frustrating.

[	Current Location	|	home-ish	]
[	Current Mood	|	tired	]
[	Current Music	|	What's This?--Fall Out Boy	]

Fiona Apple - Sally's Song.mp3  Fiona Apple's cover of "Sally's Song"

Marilyn Manson - This Is Halloween.mp3  -- Marilyn Manson's cover of "This Is Halloween"

Fall Out Boy - What's This.mp3  I don't like Fall Out Boy but the vocals are pretty entertaining

I actually really like the Fiona Apple cover so much. It's sorrowful.

[	Current Location	|	sick land	]
[	Current Mood	|	strange haze of thought	]
[	Current Music	|	So Peter, You've Become A Pirate--The Scene Aesthetic	]

• Trying to get over this friggin' flu. the tea my mom made actually sorta helped. mmm, sleepy time tea. pretty comforting :D
• For some reason (lord knows), I'm kind of totally in love with this emo-indie band The Scene Aesthetics. This song is amazing and it's actually not a very good song at all but im in love with it. meh, i have my emo love moments i guess lol.
• Saw The Science Of Sleep last night. Saw it with Max. I think I loved the movie but there were so many unfinished thoughts and feelings caused by that film. Like....i dunno. Made me think about how i differentiate between reality. and how much i live in my dreams. maybe i have a little too much of a free mind, maybe not enough reality. goodness knows. that's an entire nutshell im not sure if i have the energy to delve in to tonight.
• Attempting to read both Leviticus tonight AND finish Catch-22 by tuesday. so ridiculous. so much reading. so not enough sleep has been had this weekend.
• took the Lit SAT II yesterday. Fuck the word "Facetious". Some of you may know why lol. Facetious: Not meant to be taken seriously or literally. Kinda like Catch-22 except theres a million truths to it so you CAN take it seriously in some regards.
• My Cat Stevens collection and love is expanding :D yay
• DEAR WHOEVER CONTROLS MY HEALTH: PLEASE HELP ME GET WELL SOON. NOT BREATHING = UNHAPPINESS
• gotta go collect my thoughts. as always, my mind is boiling over again...

[	Current Location	|	peace	]
[	Current Mood	|	grateful	]
[	Current Music	|	On The Road To Find Out--Cat Stevens	]

Mr. Carton has reminded me of how amazingly good people can be. He's writing me a letter of reccomendation even this late in the game. His e-mail was so sweet it made me cry. Who wants to help me give him a welcome back to school gift party thing on Wednesday when he returns from being sick? We can give him soup and tissue and other stuff. Might be a terrible idea but I really feel like I owe him, he's helped me tremendously (besides that OCS incident with Sira lol) in all my years at BHS. But basically, *YAY!*

[	Current Mood	|	worried	]
[	Current Music	|	Telescope Eyes--Eisley	]

1. AP Enviornmental Science  --  Kavaler
2. AP Statistics  --  Goldman
3. Economics  --  Colon
4. Bible Lit  --  Carton
5. AP Lit/ Comp  --  Jones
6. Badminton  --  Sommers

[	Current Location	|	i dunno	]
[	Current Mood	|	cheerful	]
[	Current Music	|	You Love Me--DeVotchka	]

And the adventure continues! 

*Made a day of preparing welcome home gifts for Max

*Little Miss Sunshine soundtrack rules my soul 

*Took my grandma to Jamba Juice

*Me, Josh, and Michelle jumped off a pier in to the Marina!

*Told our life story to an understanding waitress at Sam's Log Cabin

*Scones are amazing

*Went to the asian mall (Ranch 99) near my house and had a crazy fun time

*I haven't slept in days but I feel awake and adventurous.

[	Current Mood	|	exhausted	]
[	Current Music	|	Little Miss Sunshine soundtrack	]

Where to begin? The most insane thing that has ever happened to me just finished occuring. The only way to explain it, is I must've gotten sucked in to the Twilight Zone for 8 hours. Like seriously, it was eerie.

Basically, I was supposed to go watch Miyazaki with Michelle and Josh. But Michelle couldn't come. So me and Josh were gonna go bowling, or to Ashkenaz or something. But we kept driving down San Pablo trying to get to the Lake in Oakland. And somehow, we missed it and got so completely and utterly lost. We somehow ended up in Fremont, Hayward, San Lorenzo, Union City, Alameda, a million little towns with no names, and a million billion suburbs. We got SO LOST. Like, we somehow came up with this rule that we would try and take the streets home and not get on the freeway to go to Oakland and we'd find streets to get us there. 8 hours later, we somehow managed to find our way back to San Pablo. I saw the craziest shit in all these random small towns! We started driving at 10 pm, and I got home at 5:30 am. It was like a road trip in to the suburbs of  Northern California. Yet somehow, it was still a hilarious and chill trip. I've never felt more like I got lost in to the Twilight Zone. Fucking INSANE. That was just crazy. I cannot even get in to the whole trip now. It was the craziest experience of my life.

[	Current Location	|	my room	]
[	Current Mood	|	geeky	]
[	Current Music	|	Cold To Touch--Brian Jonestown Massacre	]

So I've been working so much over the past 2-3 days. I'm exhausted but I have money so I'm happy. Yesterday I had breakfast at Makris with Josh, SIra, Jess, and Nadine. Yes Nadine--the rug peeing girl lol. She was up from LA so after Josh left the four of us went to San Francisco and shopped a bit. It was super entertaining complete with Nadine mugging a mannequin and stealing its cupcake shirt. Long story, good times. Then I went to work, and I talked to Max for a bit! I miss him. It was a slow night and afterwards Josh came and got me and we saw Little Miss Sunshine at AMC at midnight. I absolutely adored it. It was so clever. Just, I could see the structure and how each character was made to play a certain stereotypical part, but they played it so perfectly. And it was just like a classic hero's journey with a band of unlikely little heroes. And the score or soundtrack was just amazing. I dunno why. It was such strange music and it had all these seperate instrumental parts to it. I loved it greatly and you should all see it. OH we also ate some of those chicken fries from Burger King. Im SO SO SO sorry i really despise fast food but it was the only thing open. But they were super delicious. I hope all the chemicals and poisonous fats dont kill me today. And I have to start figuring out how to get to V's good-bye party. Hope you're all well and such.